[Brainz]

An elemental title for an anything but elemental post.

The title is a song by Nirvana, that has held a lot of relevance recently:
Quote:I'm so happy 'cause today
I found my friends
They're in my head
I'm so ugly, that's okay, 'cause so are you
We broke our mirrors
Sunday morning is everyday for all I care
And I'm not scared
Light my candles, in a daze
'Cause I've found god
Yeah yeah yeah yeah(x6)
yeah

I'm so lonely, that's ok I shaved my head
And I'm not sad
And just maybe I'm to blame for all I've heard
I'm not sure
I'm so excited, I can't wait to meet you there
And I don't care
I'm so horny, that's okay
My will is good
Yeah yeah yeah yeah (x6)
yeah

I miss you - I'm not gonna crack
I love you - I'm not gonna crack
I killed you - I'm not gonna crack
I like it - I'm not gonna crack
I miss you - I'm not gonna crack
I love you - I'm not gonna crack
I killed you - I'm not gonna crack

I'm so happy 'cause today
I found my friends
They're in my head
I'm so ugly, but that's okay, 'cause so are you
We broke our mirrors
Sunday morning is everyday for all I care
And I'm not scared
Light my candles in a daze
'Cause I've found god
Yeah yeah yeah yeah (x6)
yeah

I like it - I'm not gonna crack
I miss you - I'm not gonna crack
I love you - I'm not gonna crack
I killed you - I'm not gonna crack
I like it - I'm not gonna crack
I miss you - I'm not gonna crack
I love you - I'm not gonna crack
I killed you - I'm not gonna crack
In case you couldn't guess, the bold bits are the more relevant.

I'm so happy 'cause today I found my friends
In the christian Union here at L.U.

I'm so ugly, that's okay, 'cause so are you
Not as relevant now, but a couple of weeks ago, sort of how I felt (about Fiona)

in a daze 'Cause I've found god
It sturck me a blow to realise just how much God could help me through all my difficulties, now that I know how to ask Him.

I'm so lonely, that's ok
'Cause I'll always have Jesus' love.

I'm so excited, I can't wait to meet you there
I've spent the weekend in a youth hostel with the Christian Union, getting to know each other, and ourselves in God's eyes. I've also met Cathrine, who either makes friends too easily, or holds feelings for me. Only time will tell, and from past experience, I'm going to let it.

I miss you - I'm not gonna crack
At times in the past few weeks, I have really considered commiting suicide, but with God's, my friends, and the Christian Union's help, I am finally enjoying myself, despite weeks of depression.

I have also found a role for myself: I am now the AV (audio-visual) technitian for the CU's bands, connecting and cofiguring amps and mixing desks, and preparing the OHP transparencies with the words.

But I have a pretty good feeling that the spree of depressed posts may just be coming to an end.