Can someone debug my brain?

[-=RAV=-AdrianShephard]

Best thing for depression is to begin to hate what your depressed at.

[HangFire]

Well what if its your life or your family?

[Exilibur]

good one, hangfire

[stefanhendriks]

i went for a swim, it helped. It helped for some hours only though, but its a start.

I do not ask for this depression of some sort, but things just make it worse. Today i heared my ex-girlfriend talking and laughing out loud about a new boy she met. I mean, wtf,its only been 1 week ago!? I feel being abused somehow, i feel totally fucked up.

[TruB]

sounds like cheap girl to me..

[MarD]

Heyyo,

Don't worry aboot her, she's probably doing that just to get you mad, and think aboot "what you've lost," kindof thing. There's lots of chicks like that who would find a guy as soon as possible, you know? the famous "rebound guy." So don't give her the attention, n' thought that you're the one missing out on her becoming your ex, cause if you do, you're just doing her a favor cause afterall, that's what she wants, to feel like she's the bigger, more stronger person between the 2 of you. I'm not suggesting you get a rebound chick, cause tha'd be like, sinking to her level, but I'm sure you can at least make out the main aspects of my ramblin'. You are an intelligent coder afterall.

[stefanhendriks]

actually that does not make sense, i did not broke up. She did. If it was for me, we would be together. A rebound guy would be kindoff stupid.

Anyway, wether it is on purpose or not, it makes me feel like shit.

[elitejavi]

leave this to the future psicologist!
in the gf case, if she broke on you, why are you sad?(i know, is a way of saying) she broke on you, she don't deserve your suffering(dramatical song on background), c'mon! cheer up!( i don't know if this helps, i don't even had a gf, so i don't have very much experience)i hope i can help!
and, what is the wrost thing that can happen to you? you gotta get the good thing from this this(they say: everything that don't kill you make you stronger)
and you have friends from all the world, that helps, doesn't it?
oh, and instead of begin pesimistic or optimistic, the best thing that you can do(i do it, it's not that bad) is to be realistic, and in some moment, you will know when something is going to run in the wrong way(or in the rigth way, sometimes)
oh! and about the past, it's alredy past, and what are we going to do, let's forget it!(exept of the good moments and the things we learned(not only academical things, the things that maked us to be good) and live in the present, the things that happened in the past, let's keep it in the past!
i hope this helps!(hey i am 14, at least i am trying to help, becouse, if some of my schoolmates were going to write something they'll only write: LOL)
i'll wish you luck in your exams!

seeya

[Pierre-Marie Baty]

Originally Posted by stefanhendriks

Today i heared my ex-girlfriend talking and laughing out loud about a new boy she met. I mean, wtf,its only been 1 week ago!? I feel being abused somehow, i feel totally fucked up.

actually I had the same situation three years ago. It took me some time to admit that the girl I loved was just that, a bitch. I suppose it's just as difficult for you now ; like : what ? she can't be a bitch. Impossible. I love her. She's too cute. She's too smart. She's tooooo............ Umm, problem. I can't really say she's too nice, but I do feel the big gap between me and her. Hence that must mean I'm just a shit.

See the mistake ?

When one tries hard to raise somebody, if at some point one can't, one ends up lowering oneself.

Classic.

The big gap is the other way around, dude. Invert the sign.

[stefanhendriks]

PMB hit the spot hard.

@ the past i cant forget it. It makes me who i am. Especially the negative things of it. My experience of my past time is different from others (thats usually the case). Instead of accepting things i have been fighting it or questioning it, reasoning it, etc. I never really got over some things. I pushed things aside. The problem is, that these things arise now in uncontrolable situations. Sometimes when somebody says something that is somehow related to a negative past memory, i can react completely unexpected to that person. Ie, i can begin to yell, scream, curse, or even cry. Though, i do not jump around and get crazy or something. Its like somebody chopped u with a very thin knife somewhere it hurts the most, quickly.

I have friends, but you realize what your true friends are when you are in trouble.

Thanks for the support guys.