[stefanhendriks]

PMB hit the spot hard.

@ the past i cant forget it. It makes me who i am. Especially the negative things of it. My experience of my past time is different from others (thats usually the case). Instead of accepting things i have been fighting it or questioning it, reasoning it, etc. I never really got over some things. I pushed things aside. The problem is, that these things arise now in uncontrolable situations. Sometimes when somebody says something that is somehow related to a negative past memory, i can react completely unexpected to that person. Ie, i can begin to yell, scream, curse, or even cry. Though, i do not jump around and get crazy or something. Its like somebody chopped u with a very thin knife somewhere it hurts the most, quickly.

I have friends, but you realize what your true friends are when you are in trouble.

Thanks for the support guys.