[stefanhendriks]

I'd like to let everybody know that currently my life is a big mess and needs some cleaning. When looking at all the kind of projects i have open:

- a few websites which needs to be finished soon (within 2 weeks)
- RealBot, CS 2D, Dune 2 - The Maker

plus:
- lots of school work for 2 years

plus:
- a vacation coming

plus:
- only 1 chance to get my school stuff done , else i can kiss my ass goodbye

plus:
- i play piano, and lessons start soon
- i play guitarre (well, i tend to, just have no time)
- i play in a band

plus:
- i have friends (a few, but they consume time)
- i have a girlfriend (...need to say more?...)
- i have Bots-United (which i visit so much, that when the internet conneciton is down, my school work seems to increase with 200% heh)

plus:
- i have work, and this week i will be working 6 days... calculate the time i have left, devide that with the above amount of elements and see how many minutes i can actually spend... also do not forget i need to eat, sleep, etc.

About sleep, its been fucking warm out here in Holland, i haven't slept for a few days at all or not more then 1 hour. This breaks me up, unless like PM or something, i NEED sleep.

Its kind off strange; that in a holiday time i feel more pressure then i have ever felt in the overal feeling of my life. To prevent me from driving nuts by being obliged (or better said, feeling to be obliged..) by so many things i have to cut off a few things and make clear what i can handle now.

My main priority is school work, i have to work on it, fast, and good.

I will stop working on Dune 2 - The Maker and CS 2D; i will remove the shortcuts on my desk, as they are making me nervous.

I will remove the RealBot shortcut as well, because thats the main time eating thing for the past several years. Its open source now, and currently i do not want to work on it with so many things on my head, i cant think clear, i stress out and i do not make my environment happier with my behaviour due this stress.

Note, i do not stop , kill, pull the plug or whatever on RealBot. I want it to continue. And the past several days i saw that this is going well without my help constantly. I am glad about that.

I will visit Bots-United. I will not just vanish or something. I just want to make clear that you cannot expect as much as you used to. I do want to try the council membership and such; but its up the council if i am still functioning as i should over the time being. I understand if there are people not satisfied and want a replacement over time.

In very short:
RealBot is not dead, its father is just leaving him alone for a while...

I actually do not feel well by saying all of this, but i have no choice. If i do not keep up soon, i can kiss my future goodbye, and i want to have that future very much. I hope you all understand; if not, i do not care.